Why did I start blogging?

Why did I start blogging?

This is a question I asked myself five minutes ago as I stared blankly at the screen of my computer, the curser a throbbing reminder that I had nothing to blog about and probably wouldn’t for a number of days. This lead me to ripping a large amount of pages out of my idea’s book and tearing them to minute pieces not only because I was frustrated, but because they where all completely useless idea’s. This turn of events led me to asking that fateful question, why did I even start this in the first place?

Don’t get me wrong, I love blogging and the community that comes with it, but there are few things more frustrating than writers block, and unfortunately I seem to be encountering an inspiration dry spell. I read other blogs, I brainstorm, I frantically search my mind for vaguely exiting occurrences that may have happened in the recent past, and still nothing.

I suppose to answer my question, I need to journey back to when it all began, the 13th of June 2013. On this fateful day I decided I wanted to become ‘someone’ and the best way to do that was to start a blog. So, I did some research and decided wordpress was a suitable website and made an account in the name of ‘thelonelylion98’. I then introduced myself to the blogging world with a truly terrible post called ‘umm… hi guys?’ which, to this day, has two views, zero likes, and zero comments. I then followed this up with a large number of equally terrible posts, usually only five sentences long, which I put in the category ‘comedy’ even though they where completely unfunny.

It wasn’t until I was nominated for The Leibster Award on the 1st September that I actually started trying with this blog. How I managed to get nominated for an award I will never know but I still owe pretty much any success this blog has to Kattie Kate. Thank you so much for saving me from my awful ‘comedy’ posts all those months ago.  

So, to answer my question, I guess I started blogging because I want to be ‘someone’. Before you say anything, I’m not asking for sympathy. I’m not trying to make out I’m some poor girl ignored by everyone she knows, I just decided it would be nice to try something new and see what happened. If you think about it, everyone wants to be someone, they just go about doing it in a different way. Anyway, whatever the reason was, I’m very glad I started blogging and I certainly won’t be stopping any time in the near future, weather you like it or not.

Thanks for reading!  

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Anonymous blogging; upsides and downsides

I suppose there are two reasons I am an anonymous blogger;

  1. I am still a secondary school student so am being constantly bombarded with assemblies about internet safety. In fact, I had one just yesterday about getting naked on omegal which was accompanied by a video. You can only imagine how that went down in a room full of 15 year olds.
  2. I don’t want my friends and family to read this blog. I suppose, this being a personal blog, anyone who found it would probably spot some similarities between me and this anonymous blogger but this is much less likely to happen if I don’t reveal my name. I guess I don’t want them to read it because I hate people reading my work. I mean, I find it hard to hand essays in to my English teacher, so friends and family finding this blog is essentially one of my worst nightmares.

Anyway, if you hadn’t already guessed by the title, there are upsides and downsides to being an anonymous blogger such as myself. I decided to share these with you partly because they might be useful and partly because I haven’t blogged in 5 days and have no other ideas.

Upsides:

For me, the biggest upside of anonymous blogging is none of my friends and family have to know. I understand that many people write their blog partly to keep up to date with their loved ones but, if you are like me and just want to sit behind a computer screen peering into the personal lives of others and ranting about your day, then anonymous blogging is the way forward.

Secondly, it’s much safer. I know my internet vulnerability has pretty much peaked since I have facebook, twitter and instagram, but I post no where near as much about my personal life on those sights. I can also lock them from strangers (to an extent) but this blog is open for the world to see and, after having internet safety hazards constantly hammered into me for 4 years, that scares me a little bit.

I also don’t have to worry too much about embarrassing things I post because no one knows who I am. I have confessed a number of things on this blog that not many people know about me (99 to be exact) and it would be rather embarrassing if people I actually had to talk to could read about them on the internet.

Finally, teachers won’t find out. There have been a number of people in my year who have started various blogs and youtube/keek channels who have been told by the school to take them down. I mean sure, that’s because the where posting pictures of them in their underwear but I would be very embarrassed if the school asked me to take this down.

(I was also hoping to have an air of mystery surrounding me but I don’t think that’s happened…)

Downsides:

Since this is a personal blog, it’s frustrating not being able to reveal very much about myself. It would be easier if this was a beauty or technology advice blog or something but I really had my heart set on a personal one. They are the ones I most enjoy reading (we’re all stalkers on the inside) and I feel personal blogs can really connect to the reader.

That brings me onto the next point, I can’t connect to readers as well as others because I can’t reveal too much about myself. I always feel that the beauty of persona blogs is the fact you feel as though you are really part of that persons world and they are part of yours. It’s much more difficult to create this effect when you don’t want to reveal your identity.

I can’t post pictures of myself. I don’t mean I have a constant desire to post selfies all over your computer screen, but it would be nice to be able to share photography of holidays or days out. I am forming an idea in my head about posting some of my photography but it can’t be personal or show mine, or my friends and families faces.  

Who knows if I will ever be brave enough to reveal my identity on this blog, but I really hope so. I would love to make this more personal and really share every aspect of my life with you but who knows, lets just see where this magic carpet takes me.